Reflecting on the past is a powerful activity to help obtain direction and focus for the future. Over the past week (while our internet has been down and I have been unable to blog) I have been writing in my journal and reviewing past decisions, promises and personal revelations for the future, and enjoying the little tender mercies of the Lord.
I have realised that I have been told very specific and grand things that will happen in my own personal life.
Some of these events are far in the future and often seem extremely disconnected from the present day.
Others, seem like they could happen any second...but never quite make it to the present moment.
As I wait upon these important and still future events, I try to stay focused, and ensure that I am living up to my potential and being diligent to ensure that I am in the right position and mind frame to realise these events and not let anyone down. I have spent much of my waiting time worried about missing them, or doubting that the events were confirmed by the Holy Spirit and true revelations from God and not my own imaginations.
The spirit calmly assures and I continue to work and wait diligently for these events to happen. As I keep my mind in the right perspective to prepare for these events, I rejoice greatly in the little marvels of daily living.
Their new discoveries, like the baby learning to walk, the young child learning to read, the cute little girl learning to copy her mother, little miracles during the day that make the difficult moments so much easier to endure.
My favorite development in our life is my capacity to control my temper in stressful and frustrating moments. I have previously been notorious for my temper, and for me this is a huge step, but when activities go the wrong way, or weeks of planning fail to work out...I have calmly and patiently walked through the stress and set up a new plan and worked out the details without losing my composure.
I have been able to calmly accept that things aren’t working like I expect, find out a new solution, and set my mind to working it out. I have overcome 19 different scenarios this last week where a plan went awry and I was forced in the moment to problem solve on the fly.
Once while driving with screaming children and spilled juice in the car and having someone swerve in front of me faced a difficult challenge and reacted patiently and calmly to help every human interaction to resolve calmly and quietly back to a happy and productive state without anyone losing their head, or tempers ever being awakened from their cold slumber.
If only every interaction over the last week went so perfectly. I have a goal that someday I might reach that safe and happy accomplishment and that it will happen without me locking myself in a dark cave without any interaction with another human...